I am experiencing one of the sweetest realizations I have had all year, and one that I hope to take with me for the rest of my life! And that is this:
I am never wasting time by waiting on the Lord. It is quite the opposite!
Sometimes I am waiting on the Lord to get me out of something bad, and sometimes I am waiting on Him to give me the go ahead on something good. As hard as the hard times are... I think sometimes it can be just as hard if not harder to wait on Him to tell you you can do something good!
Either way, it's worth it. It's so worth it.
If there's one theme in my weirdo Jesus-freak dreams, where I dream of His returning to this wonderful and broken world, it is this: with all of the destruction, all of the pain and killings and fear- when the Lord finally sweeps in- I am overwhelmed with this rush of joy and fulfillment, and every time, it feels like He came too soon!! I will be crying out for Him at one point, and then He sweeps in suddenly, and at that instant I am undone and completely overwhelmed. It never fails in these recurring, but different dreams, that when He gets to me, it feels like His timing was earlier than it should have been!
I have been convinced all year that 2011 is going to be an AMAZING year! A year set apart for redemption!
We are almost 5 months in, and so far the year has mostly been waiting and trusting. It has been riddled with confusion, wetted with tears, and yet flooded with hope.
Reading these last words- confusion, tears, and hope... surely these are the ingredients for redemption, yes?!
What sweet freedom I have had so far this year, in the midst of my confusion, to have the peace of knowing that I am waiting on the Lord, and in so doing, I can't possibly err!
And now, I feel the warmth of the beams on my face, flowing in rays from the end of the tunnel, and I think: His timing cannot be better. I don't know how close I am to the end of the tunnel- but it's coming, and not a moment too soon, and not a moment too late!
It's hard to sit and do nothing... but I know that waiting on the Lord is the opposite of wasting time.
